Waqaa

Means hello in the native language. Yupik to be exact. I'm sitting at work and I feel good. It's a great day to be alive! The weather is soo dull and rainy, the weekend is supposed to storm, yet I am so content. This is quite ridiculous. I feel like I am at the top of the world, although my horoscope tells me I will get in trouble soon. 

I'm going to work on my fashion blog today. It may be a success, maybe not. I need to choose a different location.

Until probably later, toodles!

Dear _____

Lackluster. Dull. Sort of exciting. The morning is sort of breezing by. I've been displaced from every desk at work, so now I just roam around. Took some photos for Dana yesterday. A change from the every day office experience. Took too many photos for my fashion blog, my legs hurt from all the changing.

The weather has been more than bipolar these past few days. Extremely sunny and nice in the morning, to EXTREMELY windy and rainy for the rest of the day and night. I have a sad, and sinking feeling that my summer is almost over as we enter fall. However, it becomes replaced with the wonderful feeling of college. Fuck. I can't wait for all of the new experiences and memories waiting to happen!! Go change!

Other than that, what will I do today? Better yet, what will I accomplish? Probably nothing. Nothing to do in Bethel, and the weather is soo so lame. Maybe I'll make the most of it and cuddle up and watch a few movies with that someone special... or by myself. By myself is more realistic.

Jumper by Third Eye Blind

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could, cut ties with all the lies that you’ve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand
I would understand.
The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don’t belong
You’re the first to fight
You’re way too loud
You’re the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know that something’s wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say, put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could, cut ties with all the lies that you’ve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand
I would understand
Well he’s on the table and he’s gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What, they’re doing here
And your friends have left you
You’ve been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone’s got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could, cut ties with all the lies that you’ve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
Understand
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Can you put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge by friend
I would understand

All Play, No Games

Today, I made 24 dollars and called it a day. I cashed my check, went to Subway, then back to work again. Work's decent. Going by pretty fast, but it could go by faster. I've been happy lately. Weird concept to be feeling, but it's nice and warm and makes my heart feel like it's glowing for the world to see.

I work with the coolest people ever. Ever. Ever. I never really realized it, and I take it for granted sometimes even though I know that I won't get that anywhere else. Chhay is a bad as Cambodian from Thailand. He knows his shit. Oscar, best bud for life, known since birth. Maribeth, one cool chick. Miriam, no words can describe how awesome she really is. Mike, Michelle. Jo, a cool cool boss and a cool cool guy. Jaris, haha. Jay, wooo hoooo. Carlos, can totally kick my ass standing at 6 6. There are more people, but these are the people I interact with every day.

Blaaahhhhh. I might work on my otha blog today. AlaskatoNewYork, checkk it.

Work.

Work was fun. Weird to say, can't believe I said it, but it's a fact. It went by so fast, like I wasn't even at work, but just acting like it. It was great. My day was pretty great. Let me go into detail.

After work, I had a physical which was great because I actually didn't need a physical, but rather just my chicken pox shot. Afterwards, I lounged at home and updated by fashion blog (FYI: www.alaskatonewyork.blogspot.com). Which even further afterwards, I went and picked up the lovely Miriam and had some wonderful (or should I say great) ice cream cake. 

My father said this great thing to me today. "Gia, I think you should know that guys don't like girls who chase them, they like girls who make their mark and move on. They don't like desperate. Gia, you don't have to be desperate. Don't worry, you will get a wonderful guy who will treat you the way you should be treated." Which he ended with "Maybe." Lovely father. I wonder if he knows about Cole? 

Overall, today was successful. Ran to VW, went for a bike ride with the papa. It was great. The only sad thing today was I realized how old my parents were getting. It's ripping my heart up inside. I wish I could take years off of them so they could do the things they sacrificed to put me and my two sisters through school. Maybe one day, I will buy my parents the golf course that they always wanted.

Failure to Launch

Damn. I should have started my fashion blog on blogspot and not tumblr. I feel like here is more user friendly and much easier to access. However, maybe when I go to NY, I'll convert. My weekend was rather dull and boring. Didn't go to work on Friday, instead my bronchitis might have come back to eat at my conscience, but I guess I was all right considering I went out for the night. Instead of a great weekend, I was DD, and did nothing but hang with the gang, which wasn't much of a gang, really. We were missing a few here and there, but we made the most of it. Then I decided, once again, that I shall pursue Cole, but once again, decided he wasn't worth the risky business.

Laaahhdeeeefuck. What I feel like today. This sickness has got to scat. Ordered more than enough from UO. Is my happy place. Such a sick, obsessed, sickness that I have. My former roommate constantly tries to remind me that the economy would be out of a recession with me around. 

Other than that, toodles. Great things will happen on Monday........ not.

Today, Like a Day

I get phone calls in the middle of the night from the same number. I know who the person is, yet, he won't admit to it. What is going on? I guess I'll find out soon enough. Other than that, my day is pretty saavy. Yesterday, went to the skatepark and got some bad ass videos of this kid, John. Such an awesome biker. Logo came back yesterday, which was really exciting. What a fox.

I want to work on my fashion blog this week. I feel like I am failing rather miserably. I haven't posted new pictures in weeks. Maybe when I'm in New York, it will be much easier. But then again, what if I become like every other fashion blogger coming out of NY? Guess I'll have to find something to call my own.

Lately, I've had this obsession with goth. Not the hard core, but soft core goth. All black, even to the tippy toe of my combat boots. Cross necklaces, dark jewelry. Something so mystique about it all. But then I've also been obsessed with Men. Men with snakebites, sleeve tattoos, mohawks, leather jackets, skinny jeans. Men with flannel shirts, cut off shorts, sandals. Men with Volcom skate wear, skateboards, Fox hats. Men, men, men. Overall, I'm a sucker.

Till then, adieu.

Summer Sesh

Summer is slipping away. I can feel the threads through my fingers. It scares me enough to even think that sooner than soon, I will begin my first year in college. Crappy dorm, last choice to be exact, but perhaps I will put my negotiating skills to work.
On the other hand, life's pretty dandy. Got caught sneaking out a few days ago, thought my life was over, but Daddio knew what being a teenager is like. Thank you Papa. Now, all I've got to do is focus on the gold, New York City, the big apple. I like apples. I don't like cherries. I maybe like cherries depending on my mood.
I'm such a slut. I swear. But definition of slut is hard to pinpoint. Slut/Lust. Naomi, IMoan.

Touche, my love, touche.

A Tad Dreary

Work sucks. The world can't provide enough entertainment for me to enjoy my work, which is basically the art of answering the black, and sleek phone. Everyone is out sick, and you would expect it to be extremely busy, but rather, it is the opposite. The phone rings with stupid people's questions and stupid people's requests. Have you ever met a genuinely stupid person? It makes the world suck, or become more entertaining.
I can't wait for New York to begin and join me in my life's course.
Hats off to a better day tomorrow.

P.S. This is for you Miriam. Cole sucks. Boys are lame. As an independant woman, we are strong and do not need the opposite gender to be happy. Here's to you Mrs. Robinson.

Please, do disregard most of the to do list i have so immaturely constructed. I will come up with a more efficient, and life-fulfilling one.