I love New York, but how I miss dear old Alaska. Old friends, old parents, old times. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change the experience I am getting in New York for anything, but I do miss snow, and nature, and grass.

I have been promiscuous, I am sure, but not as badly as I could be. I love life, and life is fabulous. I will be the person I want to date, and I will stop searching, and let things come to me.

It is Here, They say.

It has been much too long. Can you believe how long it has been? Time has been a precious aspect here in New York. With the start of classes, with the start of new men, with the start of new explorations, life has been full of stress, and fun.

Lucas, new boy.

New York is amazing. I love my classes, the teachers, the students, and although I may be at the bottom of my class, I am not embarrassed to learn, and to flourish as an artist. Today is a gallery opening where I may meet the only dream that I know will come true, Marc Jacobs. Please. Be there.

Short Sweet Sour Chicken

It is nearly 2 am in Boston.

Enough said.

I like leopard prints and vintage stores.

I've jitters in my stomach at the thought of New York.

I hope I survive.

I hope you survive.

Apocalypse, 2012.

West, East Coast

I'm slowly making my way over to the wonderful, and fabulous, east coast. Currently, residing in a hotel in Portland, OR with my folks, my dad typing away documents on his computer, my mother watching her soap, and moi, blogging, and missing my dear sister terribly who has just left for home. 

I've got a cute pair of jeans, or 3, and some sweaters and some shoes, and some socks, and some underwear. Gone all out, thanks to the momma and the gramma. And the daddio too. Life, is glorious. I'm not spoiled, I promise but college does have its ups and downs.

The plane ride is 6 hours to Boston tomorrow. Oh my goodness, I don't know how I'll survive. A few good books, some champagne in hand and a soft, thermal blanket... dream on. More like cramped chairs, small armrests, and less than satisfying drinks. 

It was sad to leave all of my friends behind in the AK, but I'm excited to make new ones, and see old ones from RISD. Until tomorrow.

Compose

I like to compose. Not music, but literature. Hard to believe, since my days in school were very limited in the English world, but I enjoyed every minute of it. To compose is to create, to create is to imagine, to imagine is to live. Compose.

Last day today. I can say that I am dreading today as I want it to be over so I can leave and begin my education and party-like lifestyle. Who knows what to expect?

Ardavan is scaring me a little bit. I feel like he's coming on too strong for my taste, but maybe he's just a friendly guy looking to make a few fast friends at NYU. We shall see. All I know is that Alaska girls kick ass. I'm an Alaska girl.

Vitawater

That's exactly what it is. Watered down juice. Vitamin water is the substitute for cheap tang. More expensive, more colorful, and less tasteful.

Today is my second to last day at work and I have mixed feelings about whether to be overjoiced or depressed. I guess I can be a little bit of both, just like you can have two best friends, instead of one. I'm thrilled to be leaving so that I can start my days in New York. I'm depressed because I work with a melange of great, and exciting people. It was quite quiet in here today, without the pitter patter of Miriam's phone or Oscar's "manliness". Ha, manliness.

What to do with my last two days here? Plans for Friday are hectic, but knowing myself, I will let them gather dust and end up doing some other thing, not planned. It happens that way. I haven't touched my alaskatonewyork blog since maybe last week, but I know in my heart I'm waiting for the New York experience.

All of my blogs have been about my excitement for New York. I hope that they live up to my expectations. I know they will.

Here's something to leave everyone with.

"It is better to remain silent and thought a fool, then to speak and remove all doubt." - Abraham Lincoln

Blur

My life is in complete blur mode right now. I'm leaving in t minus 3 days for the city and my heart is in full throttle heart attack mode. I have so much to do with so little time. However, I am very, very thrilled to be entering New York so soon! Hello St. Mark's, hello Central Park! There is so much to do. Welcome Week is off the walls. There is way too much going on but in all the right doses.

Oscugiak left today which was sad. What will I do at work? Now both Miriam and Oscugiak are not here and I am left with an eerie silence of nothingness. Friday is my last night and my friend Scotty want's to do something epic. What's epic? No such thing in Bethel. We shall see. Like I have said reluctantly before, life is what you make it.

My posts become shorter as less goes on. My car battery has deceased. It has ceased to exist anymore. It has gone to car heaven. Fuck.

Until my life becomes more interesting, Adieu dears.

Nearly Gone

My summer is finished. Well, officially on Friday, but my last weekend of the summer was this past weekend. I'm not going to lie, or sugar coat it, but the weekend started off horribly. So boring and so lackluster. But as the weekend progressed, I found myself forgetting that I was bored and once I forgot, I stopped complaining, or caring for that matter. I allowed myself to have fun for once, without worrying about parents or reputation. Don't get me wrong, I didn't go all out and crazy, but I made the most of the weekend.
1) Scott and Christine's.
2) Ryan.
3) Johnny's house.

Overall, the weekend was nice. Now I'm ready for the second part of my adventures to begin in the big apple.

However, the one sad thing this past week was the news of my dear old friend Miriam leaving due to certain circumstances that isn't my place to say. Adieu dear. I will see you soon. I love you!

Sicky

I was as sick as a damn dog yesterday. My sister (certified doctor congrats!) informed me that it was a horrible case of food poisoning. I don't recollect eating anything the day before because I was so stressed and fatigued from work and school, but I guess something reacted with my stomach. Let me tell you, it was hell. I threw up (ew) all night, and had the most horrible time trying to sleep. Either I was too hot, too uncomfortable, or too tired to sleep in one position for too long.

Other than that, I had a pretty peaceful day at home, sleeping, watching my favorite show, and conversing with my worried mother. FYI, Korea has the best soap opera's ever.


Love

Hell

Hectic this morning. NYU said I couldn't get my textbooks because I haven't registered! I am literally, going insane. I don't know what to do with myself. There is too much going on. I have too much to purchase, too much to prepare for, and I haven't been doing any sort of summer reading or anything like that so I'm afraid that I'll be far behind everyone else.

Catalina, I pray that you have taught me well.

Monday August 10, 2009

Dear Scott, happy 21st birthday bud. I can't seem to remember your last name right now, but I know it fits your personality well. Ogre and I shall bake you a cake. We found out you like funfetti, quite smoothly, without you knowing it was a gift for you! I hope we'll see you at club native, dancing your troubles away.

The weekend was dull. Sunk into a state of depression for some strange reason. Hated life, had nothing to look forward to, even though the sun was shining so ravishingly. Yesterday was a better day however. Boating, camping, old lovers met with happy smiles and mysterious ways. It was a good day spent.

Worked on the fashion blog. Had some creeper sending my blog out to some people in this small town. Got that taken care of though. Quite dandy, technology is.

Can't wait to be out of here and in the wonderful city. I'm talking to my roommate, and although my dorm is quite shittay, I won't spend too much time in there. NEW YORKK NEW YORRK, where the big apples grow. I will follow my yellow brick road. Will you follow yours?

Love always.

TGIFF

Thank god it is fucking Friday. I am soooo tired and exhausted from doing absolutely nothing it seems. Today, I discovered EBay and outbid on way too many items. I feel that my bank account will be in utter shock and turmoil by the time I have to purchase these items. Whoops. There goes early retirement.

Fridaaayyy. I don't know what I will do today, but it will probably consist of the same thing I do every weekend.

Adieu

Catastrophe Occurs.

Not really, but it's fun to fantasize that it did. Here I sit once again at work, with nothing to do but want to fall into a deeeeeepppp slumber. I have however, resolved a few things that have lifted a lot of stress off of these shoulders.
1) Fuck Cole.
2) Yes Logan.
3) Summer over.
4) NYU soon.

I find out my dorm assignment in t minus 3 minutes. I hope it's a good dorm with a fab roommate. However, I know I can't always be so lucky and get someone like Miss. Calyx!! Holla atchoo girl. Never again, will I go crunk.

Love the world.

Dear Daisy. Happy Birthday

It's August!! Almost happy birthday to dear old sissy, Daisy. She'll be 25 and she's freaking out about how old she will be but in all honesty, I feel like her life is just beginning. I'm only 18 and I'm pretty bored. I start school in about a month, but I leave in a few weeks. I am BOILING over with excitement. I find out my room and roommate assignment this week, and my heart is dying. I hope my room and roommate are sicker than sick, but we'll see. I'll make the most of my situation because I'll be in New York and nothing can dampen my day.

Which reminds me but is totally irrelevant, I want to watch Baby Mama. That movie is my LIFE. I can't wait for my life to begin! I've made a vow to myself that no matter how poor or wealthy I become, I will pursue my dream to become a fashion designer. And the first million I make (dreaming big) will go to my parents for all that they have ever done for me. The rest will end up in charity.

More power to you.

Waqaa

Means hello in the native language. Yupik to be exact. I'm sitting at work and I feel good. It's a great day to be alive! The weather is soo dull and rainy, the weekend is supposed to storm, yet I am so content. This is quite ridiculous. I feel like I am at the top of the world, although my horoscope tells me I will get in trouble soon. 

I'm going to work on my fashion blog today. It may be a success, maybe not. I need to choose a different location.

Until probably later, toodles!

Dear _____

Lackluster. Dull. Sort of exciting. The morning is sort of breezing by. I've been displaced from every desk at work, so now I just roam around. Took some photos for Dana yesterday. A change from the every day office experience. Took too many photos for my fashion blog, my legs hurt from all the changing.

The weather has been more than bipolar these past few days. Extremely sunny and nice in the morning, to EXTREMELY windy and rainy for the rest of the day and night. I have a sad, and sinking feeling that my summer is almost over as we enter fall. However, it becomes replaced with the wonderful feeling of college. Fuck. I can't wait for all of the new experiences and memories waiting to happen!! Go change!

Other than that, what will I do today? Better yet, what will I accomplish? Probably nothing. Nothing to do in Bethel, and the weather is soo so lame. Maybe I'll make the most of it and cuddle up and watch a few movies with that someone special... or by myself. By myself is more realistic.

Jumper by Third Eye Blind

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could, cut ties with all the lies that you’ve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand
I would understand.
The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don’t belong
You’re the first to fight
You’re way too loud
You’re the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know that something’s wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say, put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could, cut ties with all the lies that you’ve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand
I would understand
Well he’s on the table and he’s gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What, they’re doing here
And your friends have left you
You’ve been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone’s got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could, cut ties with all the lies that you’ve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
Understand
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Can you put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge by friend
I would understand

All Play, No Games

Today, I made 24 dollars and called it a day. I cashed my check, went to Subway, then back to work again. Work's decent. Going by pretty fast, but it could go by faster. I've been happy lately. Weird concept to be feeling, but it's nice and warm and makes my heart feel like it's glowing for the world to see.

I work with the coolest people ever. Ever. Ever. I never really realized it, and I take it for granted sometimes even though I know that I won't get that anywhere else. Chhay is a bad as Cambodian from Thailand. He knows his shit. Oscar, best bud for life, known since birth. Maribeth, one cool chick. Miriam, no words can describe how awesome she really is. Mike, Michelle. Jo, a cool cool boss and a cool cool guy. Jaris, haha. Jay, wooo hoooo. Carlos, can totally kick my ass standing at 6 6. There are more people, but these are the people I interact with every day.

Blaaahhhhh. I might work on my otha blog today. AlaskatoNewYork, checkk it.

Work.

Work was fun. Weird to say, can't believe I said it, but it's a fact. It went by so fast, like I wasn't even at work, but just acting like it. It was great. My day was pretty great. Let me go into detail.

After work, I had a physical which was great because I actually didn't need a physical, but rather just my chicken pox shot. Afterwards, I lounged at home and updated by fashion blog (FYI: www.alaskatonewyork.blogspot.com). Which even further afterwards, I went and picked up the lovely Miriam and had some wonderful (or should I say great) ice cream cake. 

My father said this great thing to me today. "Gia, I think you should know that guys don't like girls who chase them, they like girls who make their mark and move on. They don't like desperate. Gia, you don't have to be desperate. Don't worry, you will get a wonderful guy who will treat you the way you should be treated." Which he ended with "Maybe." Lovely father. I wonder if he knows about Cole? 

Overall, today was successful. Ran to VW, went for a bike ride with the papa. It was great. The only sad thing today was I realized how old my parents were getting. It's ripping my heart up inside. I wish I could take years off of them so they could do the things they sacrificed to put me and my two sisters through school. Maybe one day, I will buy my parents the golf course that they always wanted.

Failure to Launch

Damn. I should have started my fashion blog on blogspot and not tumblr. I feel like here is more user friendly and much easier to access. However, maybe when I go to NY, I'll convert. My weekend was rather dull and boring. Didn't go to work on Friday, instead my bronchitis might have come back to eat at my conscience, but I guess I was all right considering I went out for the night. Instead of a great weekend, I was DD, and did nothing but hang with the gang, which wasn't much of a gang, really. We were missing a few here and there, but we made the most of it. Then I decided, once again, that I shall pursue Cole, but once again, decided he wasn't worth the risky business.

Laaahhdeeeefuck. What I feel like today. This sickness has got to scat. Ordered more than enough from UO. Is my happy place. Such a sick, obsessed, sickness that I have. My former roommate constantly tries to remind me that the economy would be out of a recession with me around. 

Other than that, toodles. Great things will happen on Monday........ not.

Today, Like a Day

I get phone calls in the middle of the night from the same number. I know who the person is, yet, he won't admit to it. What is going on? I guess I'll find out soon enough. Other than that, my day is pretty saavy. Yesterday, went to the skatepark and got some bad ass videos of this kid, John. Such an awesome biker. Logo came back yesterday, which was really exciting. What a fox.

I want to work on my fashion blog this week. I feel like I am failing rather miserably. I haven't posted new pictures in weeks. Maybe when I'm in New York, it will be much easier. But then again, what if I become like every other fashion blogger coming out of NY? Guess I'll have to find something to call my own.

Lately, I've had this obsession with goth. Not the hard core, but soft core goth. All black, even to the tippy toe of my combat boots. Cross necklaces, dark jewelry. Something so mystique about it all. But then I've also been obsessed with Men. Men with snakebites, sleeve tattoos, mohawks, leather jackets, skinny jeans. Men with flannel shirts, cut off shorts, sandals. Men with Volcom skate wear, skateboards, Fox hats. Men, men, men. Overall, I'm a sucker.

Till then, adieu.

Summer Sesh

Summer is slipping away. I can feel the threads through my fingers. It scares me enough to even think that sooner than soon, I will begin my first year in college. Crappy dorm, last choice to be exact, but perhaps I will put my negotiating skills to work.
On the other hand, life's pretty dandy. Got caught sneaking out a few days ago, thought my life was over, but Daddio knew what being a teenager is like. Thank you Papa. Now, all I've got to do is focus on the gold, New York City, the big apple. I like apples. I don't like cherries. I maybe like cherries depending on my mood.
I'm such a slut. I swear. But definition of slut is hard to pinpoint. Slut/Lust. Naomi, IMoan.

Touche, my love, touche.

A Tad Dreary

Work sucks. The world can't provide enough entertainment for me to enjoy my work, which is basically the art of answering the black, and sleek phone. Everyone is out sick, and you would expect it to be extremely busy, but rather, it is the opposite. The phone rings with stupid people's questions and stupid people's requests. Have you ever met a genuinely stupid person? It makes the world suck, or become more entertaining.
I can't wait for New York to begin and join me in my life's course.
Hats off to a better day tomorrow.

P.S. This is for you Miriam. Cole sucks. Boys are lame. As an independant woman, we are strong and do not need the opposite gender to be happy. Here's to you Mrs. Robinson.

Please, do disregard most of the to do list i have so immaturely constructed. I will come up with a more efficient, and life-fulfilling one.

The Week

Lots gone down, and just before the weekend of the fourth too. He doesn't want me. I don't want his best friend. Have friend talk to him tomorrow. Freaking out. Life will go on maybe. Friend and I started a "fashion blog", in the process. Every saturday we'll take a stand and do our thing. Bethel's small. Don't know how people will react, but I could care less. Obsessed with Your Winter by Sister Hazel. Don't know why I just discovered it. Need a boyfriend now, sick of independant swinger. Maybe will just never date. But I want a relationship so I can settle down and not be so wild. Not even that wild, so don't know why I'm rambling. Excited for New York. Cannot wait to get out there and thrift, drink, learn the ways of the city subway, art-like-dimensions, discover something to call mine. Car coming in tomorrow. See you.