Arizona/ Thinking with 7 around

I'm in Arizona, at the Nike Basketball Tournament with the team. It's pretty intense, getting our asses handed to us by a bunch of better teams. But, it's all about fun right? I don't play much because I don't love the game as much as everyone else I think. I'm just not as excited to play or excited to do well. I feel bad, but I can't help myself. I'd rather be an artist, sitting in coffee shops and discussing music, listening to live bands, dating the leader of the band. Just a fantasy but next year at NYU, maybe.. I'm hoping that it will come true. I'm scared, I'm not going to lie. I admit that I'm afraid to be in the city by myself, living with strangers, knowing only a few girls from school but in different locations not in the city. I'm nervous, that I won't have friends, that people will hate me. I'm afraid that it will take people years to get used to me, that I'll have to start all over. I worked hard at school to make the friends that I've made, to get to the level of an artist that I wanted to get to. I know I should be more open to new opportunities, but it's hard to get out of this mentality. I'm on my friends computer, so I'll have to come back as my computer is recuperating from a hard crash.